It's a funny idea to me that anyone might read this, but I suppose I have often followed odd websites and I have rarely if ever left a message behind me. If anyone does follow these random ramblings, then my apologies, but this journal will be kept private for the foreseeable future while I deal with things that I would sooner deal with quietly. :
I see. Added enforcement not to go via NHS.
To be honest, I'm really shocked at the low level of help in the UK for people with eating disorders. There is NO 24-hour helpline, and councelling is patchy at best.
I'm hopefully going to get a call from my potential councellor tomorrow. Eek! I just don't want her to be patronising. I patronise myself. I mean, 22, female, with an ED? How fucking stereotypical can you get, y'know? And I'm a goth too! The shame. Thank god I don't have the cutting thing or else I might as well just... just... Go to my room and cry!
Oh wow! I really hope you get someone good. Wouldn't it be amazing to get whole parts of your life back? (Remembers having whole parts of her life, wistfully)
Yeah, I kinda want to do the depression thing (the not having it!) rather than the eating disorder thing, for no reason other than I can get hold of bits of the eating thing myself (I think) under the right circumstances. Also, mortified as all hell that I'm throwing my dinner up at age 26! It does border on the deeply sad when you think about it with a normal person's brain....